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Didn't realised that it was my ah ma's birthday yesterday. So i had to forgo my TPO concert! Well.. and i didn't realised my last testimonial in friendster till now... if u wanna know, go take a look. And i'm having problem logging into friendster nowadays. Can't even do anything to it! Not that i dun wanna delete the pictures k? Ha...

Last post in secret blog updated. That'll be my last, i promise. Shall delete the blog soon... Those who wanna see, ask and you shall be given! ehh... depends! haha...

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Boring boring sunday afternoon. Shall go and watch TPO's concert tonight. Before that, it's a real boring sunday aftrnoon...

It was not like this. I used to go for movies, lunch, dinner, shopping... blabla. But not now. I do admit that i saved quite a bit of money (payday coming and i still have 3/4 of my disposable income from last month). Well, but that's not the point u see? Being able to go out with friends or someone, it's really nice. But now, i feel i'm a lifeless creature, waiting for monday to come, and sunday to end. How will i ever spend my birthday? Seriously, i have not even plan for it yet. Not that i don't want to, but i don't know what to do...

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Read on this blog, "It isn't a coincidence that we met, it's a destiny decided long ago..."

How true is that! 3 more weeks.. and after that, i shall really forget everything and concentrate on my future. If it's meant to be, it will be... "secret blog" shall be deleted after april 12. =) Just feel that it's no point.. i'll do one more post before i delete it. What an idea eh? Since nothing has come out of it. Thanks to the someone who has been reading it and encouraging me! It's time...

Don't worry guys! Julian has grown up quite abit after the last incident. Mentally stronger.. and willing to "kan kai" more. Perpective on life hasn't change quite much, but sure there is some changes. To be more realistic and don't expect everything to come out perfect. I'm an idealist though! Always think that there'll be a "happily every after" kind of ending to every story. Instead, now i'll tend to expect the unexpected more.. =)

Was listening to 9.33FM in the morning while driving to work. One question asked by the DJ, "Where is the best place to break up? SMS us your answers!"

My answer came straight out, "along the beach..."

Sorry, not emoing.. just a thought!

Alright, shall sign off now. All the best to me... and of course you... =)

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In the work place, ENFJs do well in positions where they deal with people. They are naturals for the social committee. Their uncanny ability to understand people and say just what needs to be said to make them happy makes them naturals for counseling. They enjoy being the center of attention, and do very well in situations where they can inspire and lead others, such as teaching.

In general, ENFJs are charming, warm, gracious, creative and diverse individuals with richly developed insights into what makes other people tick. This special ability to see growth potential in others combined with a genuine drive to help people makes the ENFJ a truly valued individual. As giving and caring as the ENFJ is, they need to remember to value their own needs as well as the needs of others.

Haha... for me? At least this personality test is quite true! Teacher? YES!!!! MUSIC TEACHER!

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I've been waiting for something but apparently is hasn't been done. Shall take this opportunity to blog then. Let's see...

What a good way to message your friends:

X: "hey julian! how are you? Long time no see.. come out for coffee sometime?"

Juls: "Wa.. you win already. Ord so long then msg me. Bet you got something on. Just shoot la!"

X:"Wa.. Actually i'm doing INSURANCE right now. Maybe you've got some. But we can compare and see?"

Juls: "See? i knew it.. ok la. I will see.. but not confirm will buy cos i already have 2 policies liao!"

What a good way right? Oh man.. message to simon: PLEASE DON'T USE THIS TACTIC IF U WANNA DO INSURANCE IN THE FUTURE!

By the way, the person is not simon k?

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Sent my application to US for the masterclass in China. Cost a bloody 66 bucks for express mail! Anyway.. hope everything turns out well!

Someone told me, "actually i've realised it's my mistake" Well.. sometimes.. we can't keep thinking, "as long as i realise i'm wrong, and i learn from it.. it'll be alright." Sometimes.. a decision or a mistake can decide your life.. your marriage and who you be with for the rest of your life. Trying to get back? I think the damage is done, it'll take a lot of hard work to repair it. But as long as you are willing to.. i wish u all the best.

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Played for Xinmin alumni band again today.. concert in 3 weeks time! Glad to catch up with my batch mates who are guest playing as well!

The msg i want to say to someone today...

You made that decision... If you really have anything to say or do. It's time. Time and tide waits for no man. To regret now, and make amends for it.. or to regret for the rest of your life? you choose.. i'm not going to tell you what to do. I can't. It's totally your decision.

Alright, if it's meant to be, it will... My birthday in slightly a months time. Li Hui asked me how am i going to celebrate my 21st. I told her, just make it simple.. a day with my bumble bee gang, a day with my tpjc band gang.. and a day with my parents. Simple? Ya right! I'll only make it big... if i have that special someone celebrating with me. "Big", for me.. is to be the happiest guy on earth. So i'm willing to spend the evening, with that special someone, walking by the beach.. to see the sunset. Probably.. and most likely, it'll never happen.

My birthday wish! I want a 12-inch conductor's baton! Haha! Anyone can get me one? If not.. who can walk with me on 29th April 2008, along east coast park, from 5.30pm to 7.30pm? to see the sun set.. though it's in the east! I'll take leave if "u" can... Ha!

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Yet another break up... oh no! Not again! I don't want more ppl to join my "exclusively single" club!! Cos once u join.. u cannot get back with the person anymore... please! Now i got to be the middle man for ry and lh.. haiz.. time and again. Break and patch. when will it ever end? Is the love god trying to be funny this year?

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Oh man.. getting busy. Wanted to go for japanese class today instead of saturday. But it was raining so heavily and i was so hungry! What for starve myself right? So the most i'll rush there after my theory exam on saturday! Anyway it's kinda near town. =) Good luck to me for my theory exam!

Recently found out another friend of mine broke up with her gf also. So i just formed a "exclusively single" club. Ha! And the motto for us is "hao ma bu chi hui tou cao". Meaning "good horse doesn't eat the grasses at the place where he had already left" Cruel right? Haha.. but that's what she wanted anyway.. being cruel... =)

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Can't imagine i spent $42.50 on my dinner! But it's really worth it. Daniel's birthday tomorrow and asked us to eat with him lol.. All guys anyway. But i did saw some pretty girls. Wahaha!

Nothing much today. Conducting the band tomorrow. All the best to me.

ps. secret blog updated..

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Please choose an essay topic (choose only 1 option). There is no standard writing style nor a right or wrong answer. a. Share an event or incident you have encountered personally and why and/or how it has affected you or is especially meaningful to you.

A. Doing this badly in my A levels is the turning point of my life. I realised that if opportunity is not taken, it'll just slip by and live to regret the rest of your life. Since then, everything i did, i told myself "i cannot fail. Even if i do, i make sure i do my best."

How many people had actually had the courage to write in this essay saying that "i failed to do well in my A levels"? How many actually wanted to turn their lives around? Many.. But how many have the courage, the willingness and the persistence to? I have known a few of them.. but many will just want to give lots of excuses on what went wrong during their A levels. We got no one to blame but ourselves. Only to realise that, we can then have the courage to take charge of our lives. To do what we really want to do, to go where we really want to go, and to be what we really want to be.

Just a thought to re-apply for NTU. Well what course, it's for me to know, for u to guess. It may just be for fun. But it may also be a back up plan if i fail do to music. Hope this essay goes well!

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Julian vow not to get hurt and get scolded for no reason ever again... Caring and irritating can be one fine line.. so in order not to get scolded for being irritating, the idiot proof way is not to care...

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My officer has approved the recording and the trip if i get through the audition! Good thing though it's alot of hard work! Imagine conducting an orchestra in China? In front of so many audience in a concert hall? Learning from the best conductors in the world? Hope i get in!

Anyways, tomorrow's the release of A level results.. a repeat of the heart break a felt 2 yrs ago.. as well as last year. Hope she'll do well. Get to a course she dreamed of and be the best she can be... good luck jing!

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Talked to a few friends about the conducting masterclass in china. Well... At the end of it, i'll get to conduct the hunan symphony orchestra in a public performance! But i need to get accepted in the first place! Hope i do... I need to get ready those scores.. study them. And get ready a video of me conducting. I can easily do Eb suite with a band. Since i've done it before. And really hope that i can get central band to do a recording for me. I know all the bitching will come in. But i don't care! Lol...

Sometimes i just feel that i get motivated when i wanna prove somebody wrong. Maybe it's just me. I failed before.. i dun wanna let people have the chance to fail me again. Just take the A level results as an example. So maybe it's just good for me.. to prove people wrong.. and to prove to myself that i can do it.. =)

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A whole day spent rotting at home... Wanted to watch leap year. Since i'll be falling out early tomorrow afternoon, maybe i shall catch it by myself... =)

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