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"People gives all sorts of excuses on why they can't, where all they need is one reason on why they can"

Reason on why i can: People believe in me and i believe in myself..

Monday's coming... feeling dreadful and excited at the same time. I can play my tuba again! I can practice and do everything about music! I can save money!(though i haben been spending this weekend!)

Took an application form for my grade 8 exam... but it cost me a bloody 320 bucks! Wondering how am i going to get the money... red packets? Haha.. Shall ask 2wo chua whether i'll be paid back after i've sign my contract... But i know the answer.. haha! Dun wanna waste my time.. or else i'll have to wait another year to take my exam! And this will motivate me to work even harder... like what i did in training wing.. prac and prac everyday.. Those are the best days man!
Had a good day with my darling! Haha.. though we didn't go anywhere.. but we did something romantic! =X Haha... Thanks dear! Enjoy your school!

Shall sign off now.. wish myself a good week ahead! Jia you!

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Felt that my good sound is back to me again! Got to prac on my running notes and i think, my grade 8 is possible! Yea! Today we had a full band prac with band A... played some stupid pieces and of course, one very nice piece.. the Phantom of The Opera! Yea!!! I didn't know that this bloody derrick is actually so bloody good.. he's a french horn player from my batch. He's so darn power la! Really had a nice time! Oh ya, we're playing at Takashimaya on the 16th of May. Hopefully we play phantom and i'll still be in band B! Haha...

Read about jing's stress and complains in her blog.. Jing, just to tell you that you just got to bare with it.. after A levels, you'll feel darn empty. The tutorials, test, stress and laughter will just disappear right after the last paper. Yes, A levels is stress, but the stress you face now is totally different from the stress you'll face afterwards. You really think about what you want in life, where you'll go and what you'll be... it really scary.. you think about the things and problems you'll face if u ever fail.. just by failing one step hinders your dreams.. it takes years to recover from that... it's different in school, where one failed test or exam enables you to try again and again at least till ur major exam. There's people in school to help you.. but that's not always the case in the outside life. I miss school days and i really do.. you'll know what i mean 10 months later!!! Enjoy being in ur school uniform and asking for money from parents! Take more before u start giving them! haha!

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Had practice for the most part of the afternoon. Feeling much much better today! But i found out my lips were so dry till the skin peeled off.. luckily, not painful! Had some problem with my lip slurs today.. i guess it's because of my dry lips or maybe my not yet 100% recovery of my strength? Will try again tomorrow! Thinking of changing my first piece of my grade 8 exam to Edward Gregson's Tuba Concerto. Firstly, the piano part is easier and i'm getting to like the piece more and more! the only problem is the high notes which hits the E and Eb in the first and second movement respectively... Notes and rhythm wise, it's easier than Antonio Capuzzi's Concerto for Bouble Bass... How?? I've been practising Capuzzi's for quite some time without much improvement.. maybe ui shall give it a try! Shall practice 2 pieces and se how it goes! 7 more months to go anyway! But it's not short!!!! 2 more pieces!

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My preparation for my tuba exam was hindered by a stupid virus which caused a stomach flu... Was practicing yesterday in Studio D.. then suddently my tummy got so much "wind" that i got to stop playing. Got home and i actually vomited at the carpark! Lol.. Went to see doctor but i vomited out the medicine i took so my dad brought me to CGH.. nothing changed, i just got more medicine that all. Stupid! Finally got better this afternoon and had half a bowl of porridge since yesterday's lunch! Hopefully i can get back to practice asap!

Hopefully i can go ount faber this weekend with jing! Not for hanky panky od course! She just want to have some romantiv dinner with me! Haha...

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Started my day by pissing jing off... caused i slept till like 3 without wishing her happy birthday! Haha... I know my wishes meant alot to her but i let her down! Made up for it by giving her a set of Bikini! Haha... And a nice looking cake! my mum gave her a red packet! Yea, and in the evening i drove to marina bay.. along with her family of cos, for steamboat. It's like the 2nd time in 3 weeks i went there la! haha... Really had a nice day with her! Jing, happy birthday! love you always...

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Keep wondering why my playing is still as bad as ever... maybe i've improved, but i always feel that it's not enough. I want more... i want to do more, to improve more and to achieve more!!! At this rate, how do i get what i want within 3 years? How do i become a conductor or a music educator? Argh.... please!!! I know that's my path... i got to carve it out all by myself... I don't want to die one day and say the things Tchaikovsky said: "To regret the past and to hope for the future, never satisfied with the present. That's the story of my life..." i'm turning 20 and within 7 years i got to get what i want... will i get it??

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Had a good weekend! Yesterday we were celebrating simon's birthday with the BB gang and we drove to orchard for dinner! But of all things, i forgot to slot in my cash card in the ERP machine! What to do? Got to pay a fine of 10 bucks lor.. sad. And after everything, i drove simon back home. Haha... Good for him, got to retake his A levels in TPJC. For me, there's no more chance. Haha.. But i promise i'll be successful!

Went back to camp today for COG at Istana. Had some practice while reaching. Reached home around 8 and drove jing to changi village. haha.. Haben had my dinner so i ate subway there and wanted to drive her to see planes taking off, but i went the wrong way! Haha... Well, got to explore changi village anyway!

Had a fufilling day today! Tomorrow got to practice more!

Ps: To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream, not only plan, but also believe. ..

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After my block leave, i really felt that i've deproved alot alot... Can't sustain my long notes, and mysound really sucks. Took so darn long to improve on my sound and after the block leave, it just went away like that. So darn angry with myself!!! Really got to catch up... among Wei Chuen, Daniel Kiang, Zheng Wen and Nicholas, i'm the lousiest tubist of them all! Oh how... practice and practice... that's what i'm going to do... i can't lose out... i must improve and be my best, if not the best...

Just finished listening to Tchaikovsky's Symphony no. 6... And read the write up to the symphony.. It's really sad that he died 9 days after the premier of his last composition. But what a genius he is!

Music music and music... that's my life and i'm going to do myself proud... Can't let myself down!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!

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Same old thing... Have not been blogging for quite some time! And this is my first post of the year! Just to update everyone: I PASSED MT DRIVING TEST!!! Hahaha.... Was kinda nervous though! But after that i just treat it as a normal lesson. Yea, got 16 points and 8 points come from a stupid Mazda 3 which went so bloody fast without giving wat to me! Luckily i did an E break myself! So the tester did not give me any E brake test! haha... ok, gonna write my new year wish list!

1. Driving licence (i got it!)
2. New pair of specs
3. New set of clothes
4. New pair of nike shoes!
5. Fixed deposit account
6. Piano lessons
7. Piano
8. Grade 8 Theory
9. Grade 8 Tuba

Yea... this are the 9 tings i must get by end of this year! Signing on tomorrow i think! If they offer me the contract! Then I'll be rich! But sadly, subway didn't give me the job. Sad! 320 bucks gone!

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